Awake in the night (11/11/2018)

I am a night owl. Staying up late is something that I actively enjoy doing. In the night, I paradoxically feel more awake; staying up late is the time where I am able to focus and feel the most motivated. Sometimes at night, I get this strong urge to go do something that I call a "life trip"(more on this in a later blogpost). In a nutshell, I feel as though I can and should go out and do something meaningful in the world. Maybe I could go do something I've always wanted to do, like learn how to play the guitar. Of course, this feeling doesn't last long, nor does it only happen at night, but it feels great when it does happen.

Nighttime is where I feel the most focused and relaxed. Most of my blog posts and better ideas were thought of late at night. There's something about the peace and quiet of the night that lets me focus and actually be motivated to work. Nowadays, basically all the time I spend recreationally reading or catching up on other things is done at night.

Of course, sometimes this can backfire, and staying up late can cause me to become a lot more tired during the day. This year in school, I have stayed up late a majority of nights, and consequently I have been uncontrollably been falling asleep in a lot of my classes. Also, this year in particular, I feel as though sleeping late has been affecting my mental state. I have been a lot more dumb stuff this year than usual, such as walking into door frames or making the stupidest errors on tests. Recently, I have been trying to increase my sleep so I can focus more during the school day.

But even knowing that I should sleep, I still sometimes end up finding myself staying up very late without realizing it. It's probably a habit that I have created now, and even when I can go to sleep early I always end up sleeping late. I think that staying up late can be useful and nice, but most of the time I should probably sleep earlier.